Message to Nikki

My dear lovely baby,

Thanks for being in mummy & daddy's life for the last 2 months. You have been great & nothing can be better. You turn a house into a home. Although your time with us here is short. But we got no regrets. You gave us more than what we have given you. You were never angry with us no matter how we bully you. You will always be by my side no matter I'm sad or happy. Thanks for being such a lovely baby... 

You mention you wanna be home with mummy & daddy, you love seaside too & wanted to run free. Our home is your forever home, baby. (Our home is Santorini Seaside Theme!) and you can run freely no matter where we go... You can watch while mummy cook. You can sit/lying down beside me while I watch TV. You can accompany mummy go shopping. (Just tell mummy which you love & mummy will buy for you) you can accompany daddy while he's on the job. You can sleep in between us at night. You can follow us to wherever we go. 

Nikki, we missed you. Do you know that mummy will tend to smell your collar & feeling you are here with me. Mummy's afraid 1 day, your smell at the collar will be gone. Everywhere I walk, I'll have flashback of you following me just like the times you were still around. I'll tend to walk slower just to wait for you. 

I miss you my baby... You will be deeply engraved in my heart & never to be forgotten. You will be deeply love everyday till we meet at the other end of the rainbow bridge. 

Lots Of Love,

Mummy & Daddy

Nikki's Heart Breaking Moment...

Things had been going on really well, not until....

Just 2 weeks ago, Nikki have been being very weak ever since the last time he had urinal infection. Since then, Nikki have not been as active as before... I thought it was normal since he's already 14 years old. But I'm very wrong...

(Nikki when he's at the vet for examination & catrofen injection)

When I came home from work on 12th June 2014, hoping to see Nikki welcoming me home... But it was so silent... Which really puzzled me... 

Went to his usual spot, seeing him lie down with a sad look, scare me... He couldn't stand up anymore... He tried & tried... But fall again & again... I tried all I can to massage him, held him, support him... At that moment, I think to myself I've been prepared to this day to come... The day Nikki couldn't stand up & hv to be on cradle support for travelling around... But I still wanna try...!! Not giving up... 

So the next day, I brought him to vet myself for catrofen shot... 

He have to be held throughout the whole day... Seeing him lying so listlessly broke my heart. 

After the examination of the vet, a news broke up which all dog owners will not wanna hear...

"I would suggest u let him go... He is suffering in pain all over. With his age, he could have organ failure all over & that is why he is peeing pool of blood..."

I cried... I'm shock... Nikki was only with me for 2 months... I have not done anything for him as his mummy... I can't let him go! So I went home with Nikki, not wanting to put him to sleep...

If anyone were to say, dogs does not know what is going on, you are absolutely WRONG! Nikki knows!!! He was tearing all the way back home... 

Nikki would be hungry when back... So I told him "it's ok Nikki, I'm not gonna give up any treatment on you... It's ok if you can't stand up to eat. Mummy will feed you food 1 by 1. Mummy will nurse you back... So please don't give up ok?"

Things were not as easy as I think... It happen too fast for me to accept.. Nikki's not eating, not drinking... Not even his favourite treats will make him open his mouth. That is when I knew, Nikki's giving up.... Nikki's really in pain & leaving... My heart sank! I hug him tight in my arms crying & begging him to hold on... His time with me is too short... It's only 2 months! In this 2 months, he have given me more than what I've given him. 

Animal communicator, Rebecca was immediately being called upon to do a distant reading... I wanted to know his last wish, his message... I wanted to tell him lots of things... I've so much love which I've not given him... 

Msg from Nikki...

1) wat do u wish to do now before going?

Very laboured breathing. Pain in the stomach and chest. 

Mummy, can you hold my hands and hug me tight when I go?

2) is there anything u wanna say to mummy & daddy?

Thank you for giving me a new lease of life. Happy to be with you even though time is short.( Is he trembling on left side? ) it hasn't always been a happy time. (feeling bloated in the stomach and nauseous) it's dark and painful for me but I wish to hold on a little longer. Just to have the feeling of home and a family.

3) are u in pain now? Do u wanna put to sleep or go slowly?

Head hurts but can I have my last moments at home? 

4) mummy & daddy will bring u anywhere u wanna go... So do u wanna go anywhere or just stay at our side?

I want to go to a cooling and quiet place. showed me a picture of the seaside, in the open with both of you by his side. (My house is Santorini Theme, which is seaside)

5) is there anything u wan us to do for ur afterlife?

I don't want to go. I want to stay a little longer, just a little longer. 

6) how u wanna us to do aft u pass on?

Can I still stay around in the house?

He wants to be cremated and have his ashes scattered where he can run free. He does not wanted to leave... He wanted to hold on longer to have home & love from mummy & daddy feeling longer. He wants to say sorry, for being vomited on the bed... He will hold on till about 1am. So please be prepared.

Reading all these makes me lost control of my tears... You have always been my good baby boy! Of course I'm your mummy! You can still stay around the house if you want after crossing the rainbow bridge where there's no pain, plenty of food, plenty of drink, big piece of land for you to run about... But mummy & daddy have a request... Can we keep your ashes with us as memorial? You can still run free, my baby... 

14th June 2014, 12.58am

This is the time... Nikki is gone... Gone a painful way... My world just collapse... Everything happen just so fast. So fast for me to have no time to react. Seconds before he's gone, I can hear him crying out something... Something like mummy daddy I love you... But I didn't know what it really is... I wish I could understand. I wish I could pull him back. But everything's too late now. He have ended all his pain & will go to the other side of the rainbow bridge waiting for me to reunite with him 1 day... 

Nikki's funeral & cremation is carried out by Tengoku天国 on 14th June 2014 @ 12.45pm. 

I would like to thank everyone for the condolence wishes & support. I would like to thank all those that have visited Nikki & also all those that bring Nikki into my life. 

Special Thanks...

Hubby - Thanks for being there for me & Nikki @ every moment of what we have went through. Without your approval, Nikki will not be even our dearest baby.... Thanks for taking care of him when I'm not around. Thanks for fulfilling Nikki's wish to be around both of us till his last breath & sending him off together as a family. Thanks for being there for me when I grieve. Thanks for always wiping tears away for me whenever u see my tear drop... Thank you so much for your love for the both of us... I Love You!

Eric - Thanks for always on 24/7 standby to drop down to my house whenever I called for help. Thanks for helping to ferry us to Nikki's cremation. Thanks for being there for Nikki whenever he needed urgent help. Thanks for joining to send Nikki off.

Jenesta/Leonard/Sebastian - Thanks for the sending off for Nikki. Thanks for all the care & concern & let him feel loved whenever you all dropby to visit him. Thanks for all your condolence & well wishes. Thanks for being there for me even thou we met not long. Thanks for saving furkids & giving them a 2nd chance of life.

SPCA Singapore - Thanks for letting me pass the screening & being able to adopt Nikki. Thanks for letting me have 1 more day with him even thou you guys are closing & doing OT when I'm suppose to come again the next day to collect him. Thanks for taking care of Nikki for the time when he is with you guys. 

Nikki And His Playful Companion

As some of you may know... I've fostered a mongrel call Manna. I just can't stop snapping their funny photos...!!! Here're e photos for your pleasure...

Hahaha!!! She literally tires Nikki out... Non stop chasing and hovering ard...

Finally!!! There's a toy that interest Nikki... Thought he's always a cool guy...

This is where they'll be when I'm having my tidbits on e sofa... Both so greedy!!!

Poor Nikki, have kept being Manna's target everyday.... But it's also a good thing... So Nikki won't kept sleeping or laze ard e hse e whole day... A little exercise for him...

Hahaha!!! Did Manna keep up to her words??? Hahahaha!!!

The answer is: NO!!!!

Manna The Fostered Mongrel

As some of you may know, I'm a fosterer as well... Recently there's a urgent call for help for urgent fostering of a puppy mongrel.

Name: Manna

Age: 7 weeks old

Gender: Female

Medical Condition: NIL

Size: Will grow up to medium size

Sterilized: No

Microchip: No

Paper-trained: In the progress

Listen to command: In the progress

Found: rescued out from in between the wheels of a tractor.

She's suffering from ear-mites and patches on her body when she's found. After a week of care, her fur are growing out and patches are getting lesser & lesser. Her ear-mites issue have also gone. 

We are seeking for adopters that can provide her with a forever home, and give her all the care and love she need...

Interested parties, please kindly leave down your comment below. Or send in your email to: zhen.zi1985@gmail.com

Nikki's on SPCA Webbie!!

Yeah!! Nikki's on SPCA website now!! 

Do click on the link below for more happy ending stories abt Nikki and other animals... 

https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=10152109177323155&substory_index=0&id=262947298154

Oh ya... Sorry for the late update on Nikki... Will be updating his latest progress soon!!!

Nikki Is Sick...

This morning I woke up to a nightmare!!! The whole living room and kitchen is full of bits of urine & blood!!!

The 1st thing that comes to my mind is, Nikki! I don't know what had happen to him and this have never stopped... The moment I wipe it, there he urine another small pool of pee blood...

In my mind I'm thinking is it cause I did not bring him to go downstairs to pee in the morning, so he hold till his bladder got infection and now can't pee??! Omg!!! He was being rushed to the vet immediately... 

The vet gave him a painful anal test and an injection for his bone... Although he cried and struggle throughout his whole anal test, but he is brave enough to go through the injection... 

Now we just have to wait for him to pee blood again tomorrow and bring the blood sample back to the vet... In the meanwhile, he will have to take a 10days course of antibiotic & may extend for another 5 days after the test is out... 

We are guessing it's either it's urinal/bladder infection or it's gall stones... And the cryst are cutting him up inside...

Poor Nikki... Just like human... He dosed off after taking his antibiotic... It's really a bad & tiring day for him today...

(Total damage of the day...)

1st Night Home...

I have to say, 1st night home for Nikki is not easy... We have got no shampoo, no food, no toy, basically nothing for Nikki. But we can't go straight to pet shop after getting him from the shelter, as we need to bring him home straight to let him settle down at new environment and reduce the stress of moving to new place. In fact we were worried that he can't adapt to it. 

A tip to every new dog owner out there...

When moving your dog to a new environment, please walk around the neighborhood to let it do all it's business before going up to your house. This is the initial step to train your pet to be grass-trained...

Once home, Nikki start roaming around the house and we got to faster prepare water and newspapers to put all over the house just in case he is paper-trained and wanted to do his marking at the new house. 

Nikki actually spent 40mins non-stop walking and sniffing around the whole house... I'm like "Nikki, can you please stop and at least have some water before u continue???"

(This is him, smiling when I tell him to drink water...)

Silly boy just make my heart melt.... But still!! U need to have a good bath and dinner, so to have a good night sleep...

Instead of leaving him alone at home while we go out to get his stuffs, stupid me actually think of bringing him along... (Maybe can let him do a full groom too)

From my house to the nearest shopping mall if were to stroll, it will only take less than 20mins... But this "old man" took 40mins!!! At that moment, I've actually forgotten that he is already 14, which is human age of about 98 with osteoarthritis!! Oh my god!!! I'm so sorry, Nikki!!!

When reached the grooming salon, no one wanted to groom him as it's already over their working hours... So we got no choice but to buy all necessities and took cab home and bath him ourselves... 

Once home again, I quickly let him have a nice warm bath... He got dirt all over him. The water is grey. And luckily he is super tamed. Due to his weak legs from osteoarthritis, he can't stand up for a long time... He need to lean against the wall to support himself... My heart hurts seeing him like this... 

Bath is done. And it's blow dry time! To my surprise, he just lay on the ground and let us blow dry him... 

He literally fall asleep while having his blow dry... He is so comfy that no matter how we move him, he won't wake up... He is even sleeping while we are looking out for any ticks on him... The easiest blow dry ever!!! 

After which I can't bare to wake him up to have his dinner... But this greedy boy actually woke up immediately when I'm preparing his food... Was thinking to prepare 1st, so when he woke up he got food to eat immediately. But I never expect so fast... Good nose you have there, greedy boy!!!

(This is him after a good nice bath and dinner...)

Handsome boy isn't he? Just in case you all were wondering, where he sleep... He sleep with us in our bedroom... In fact it's not us who tell him where to sleep at night... He knew where he's sleeping and he walk straight to our bedroom and sleep beside the bed automatically when both me and my hubby are still watching TV at the living room... 

I always wonder... Why is he at the shelter in the 1st place? He got no attitude problem, not barky, not mischievous, he don't pee around the house... But why just because of No Time and have to give him up? He don't need much of an attention either... Is it really just an stupid excuse or is it that he is sick and old? But still, whoever you are out there, if you happen to read this blog, I would like to say a big THANK YOU! 

Thank you for not throwing him out to the street instead, and let him starve, fight with other big dogs out there or got into a road kill... Thank you for letting me meet him... Thank you for letting him go, so he can be at a place where true love is all around him...